Imagine if your entire industry simply ceased to exist. Poof! Gone. You’ve lost — not just your job — but your entire career and so have all your associates.

For every single person working in theatre, that is exactly what happened a year ago. Every director, every actor, choreographer, costume…

Each year I reflect in the hours before my birthday begins at midnight. It is a meditation on the year past and the age I was and all the years that have led me to this point. It is something of a ritual and the only parameter is to write.

Have you heard of this thing “cancer”?

Yeah? Me, too.

Do any of you out there NOT know someone who has died from cancer?

No, I didn’t think so. In the last year, I have lost two great people to cancer, both relatively young men, who I will give tribute…

I come from a family of teachers, but I never aspired to teaching. No, that isn’t quite right….it seemed like a bad deal to me: Early morning start, locked in a room with kids for 8–10 hours, terrible pay. Sure, summers off but…

Well, I’m an artist. I paint fine…

I forgot to take any pictures of myself this year.

It’s my birthday again. This year far from Thanksgiving — the furthest it can be. One year, I watched the sun rise on my birth day; it takes a long time and is coldly beautiful at the end of November. One year it was on Thanksgiving, which made me very…

I held the age of 35 in holy horror. Why? No idea. I think we all have some age that scares us. Perhaps it represents a turning point for our parents or a societal trope of our formative years, unremembered and buried in the subconscious as a terror connected to…

My best friend from college, Michael, called me: Our buddy, Nick Tochelli, had died. Complications from surgery.

I think he was younger than me. I am 35.

He is the first of us to go.

Left to Right: AmarA, Michael, & Nick Tochelli

When did we last talk? Maybe a year. Probably more. I am certain there are…

For what it’s worth

Opinions of AmarA: And artist existing & creating fully & truthfully. “Art is not living. It is the use of living.” Clara Schumann

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